This month consisted of days that felt so long, but ended up wizzing by. I don’t know how I feel about March yet. But then again- do I need to know?
I can’t make this into a list and I can’t really explain any of these because my head feels like a bunch of puzzle pieces spilled all over the floor. So here are my favorites, sans the explanations.
Jawbreaker by The Messy Heads- here I must explain myself! I am so fucking proud of everyone involved with Messy, especially Emma, Cyb & Paige, who I have watched create, time and time again, remarkable art. This issue was something I was mesmerized by as soon as I laid eyes on it at the pop up in Brooklyn, and ended up indulging & feeling through every page on a couch surrounded by a bunch of amazing people, in my own little world.
Piercing my own ears
Texts I shouldn’t have sent but sent anyway
Pure Heroine Extended by Lorde
Too Much and Not the Mood by Durga Chew Bose- all the essays in this book, especially As In, The Girl, Upspeak and At My Least and Most Aware had me FUCKED all the way up. Please buy your own copy to read and mark up and love.
Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad
We Should All Be Feminists by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie
Crushed… https://thenewinquiry.com/crushed/ This is what March felt most like, and what March still feels like, and what a lot of April will probably feel like too. I read this in the beginning of the month, and reading it now feels like I’m reading something completely different. But it still feels right. “It’s not that it’s unreciprocated; it’s that it feels almost impossible. Almost.”
Old SNL skits
Dead Poets Society
I am all 1,097 views on this video of Abby’s. And counting.
Clearly, the word fuck.
Thai food!!! Chinese food!!! Nepali food!!! Asian food!!!
Random little stick and poke tattoos
Going to the top of hills & trees
Bleachers MTV Unplugged
Everybody Talks by the Neon Trees lmfao bye
Strange Desire by Bleachers (THE WHOLE THING IN ORDER WITH YOUR EYES CLOSED LYING ON YOUR BACK IN THE DARK!!!)
Harry Styles on vinyl
Blue skies (finally warm enough to lay in the grass <3)
Remembering that this is all FOR NOW, not FOR EVER.
Everyone who has been speaking up lately and been educating themselves on not just some things that are wrong, but being inclusive, and thinking about everything that is wrong! BE INCLUSIVE IN APRIL!!!
March was spent telling myself that none of this matters, and that all of this matters. Thinking of how small I am, but also, how big I am in this world.
March feels fucking weird and making this list feels fucking weird but maybe it’ll help me get back into the groove of things. I think I’m in love? FUCK!!!
IT’S BETTER TO SEE LIFE THROUGH ROSE TINTED GLASSES